I don't know..
Why should I stop myself just at this point when things being done and shown are telling me it's not worth it. Why should I be giving up things I love when it's not worth it again? Why should things be given and happiness be made for unworthy reasons?
I keep thinking..
Just how long more can I continue. To be stupid, to be all their fool. To pretend I ain't hurt, to put up with all the nonsense.
Just yesterday, for a split sec, I was hoping I really had the need to go for an op. To compare which pain was more unbearable.
I do love you, but I don't know how long more can I continue 'acting'..
Will I be allowed?