Meet up with See Yee and Steph and went clubbing.

Wasn't a pleasant one at all.

Cause they were there. The lians.

And yea. Club half way had to go out talk. Was still ok. We were talking as if we were friends. Shortie could still whisper whisper with me and whatever. Telling me how she wants to make things difficult for him and stuffs. And telling me he has another girl. Sigh~ I don't know man. Don't affect me with such shit.

Then went back to club. Realised See Yee was dead drunk and had to take care of her from there. And yea, didn't dance already. Humph!

Well See Yee was so dead drunk she couldn't walk at all. Lol. Had to call Ter and fetch us home even before club close. SPOILER! Ok fine.. Just when we reached See Yee's place, I received a super devastating text that I didn't know what was the next thing I should do.

I didn't feel good. Had to ask Ter send See Yee back home. And there I was in the car talking on the phone asking for an answer. Fine. Had to go back Clarke Quay sort out some shit DAIJI! Yes. I said what I said.

Yes. Cause once again the problem surfaced and we were settling stuffs like lians and bengs were. We were no different from them and how I despise myself!

I was shock the minute I reached. Shortie asked me : ''I got say I wanna ... ... ... meh? When?'' It was then I realised the power of flipping satay,otah and prata was. You were the one who told me so many shit just now. And it's less then an hour ago! Now you say you never say?!

NEVERMIND!

Then She triggered me.. She went on and on. So innocent. So everything. I blew. I shouted. Shortie shouted back at me. I turned and next thing I know Baby stood infront of me and pulled me back to Ter's car and asked me to stay inside.

Yea. I've never ever shouted in a problem before and this is the first problem that really made me go crazy.

And you ownself wanna interfer you still blame me and said you didn't deserve all this?! Ask yourself. You wanted to be the middle person make peace ok! But why said I was even in the wrong?! And why did you even bother to call people down. Some more guy! I was just me, myself and I alone. One girl! ASS~!

I no longer know what is right and what is wrong.
I no longer know what can I ask for.
I no longer know what I really want.
No longer.. Not anymore..

Why is it that I can't do things you do?

You can run away from my questions and leave me hanging there wondering what is what. But I'm not allowed to. Cause you'll tell me asking me a question and demand for an answer.

Why is it being brought up? Of all times, but in the middle of the quarrel between ya past and current. Why wasn't it being said in previous quarrels? Why now? At this point of time. Did she say anything to make you think and react that way? Am I suppose to think what is obviously being shown? Or believe what you says like always..

It's just so not fair to me..

- HATE THAT I LOVE YOU

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I cant stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]
You wont let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forgive (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate...
You know exactly what to do
So that I cant stay mad at you
For too long thats wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that i adore you

[Rihanna:]
And i hate how much i love you boy (yeah...)
I cant stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa..)
But I just cant let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said its not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I..will be under reason why
And it just aint right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I cant stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just cant let you go
But I hate that I love you so[

Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me
And your kiss wont make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh...
Oohh...

[Rihanna:]
As much i love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that i love you soooo
And I hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just cant let you go (but I just cant let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. soo.....