} Emilynn :D my love for you <#3

Was to get Baby's present done. Got to work SUPER late! Crap. Heng boss came down late. Somehow today seems to be special. =)

Boss came down to gimme stock. Said he's heard good stuffs about me and wants to bring me up to office. So yea! My status of a god darn promoter is finally gone for good? But I'm still stress la. There're good and bad things about both, working in store and office. Sigh~

I admit I've been a naughty girl but somehow everybody seems to be so happy with me? Heh~

Ok. Freda's off today and proactive promoter somehow had some arguement with Freda and she requested to resign on Sunday? Scary! I'm glad I was enjoying my off day with Baby!

So I was a good girl being in store whole day today. And I really mean whole day! Cause somehow I just didn't have the appetite. Didn't go for lunch break but only a 30mins break drinking my soy milk from 'Jolly Bean'.

I've got no idea what was wrong with me...

Cause it was a sudden thing, where I was strike with fear? Yeap. It was fear. Fear of what? I didn't know.. I just didn't feel right. Something was just wrong. And I couldn't figure out what. I totally felt like crap the whole shit day!

After work went to look for Baby. Passed Baby my present for him. I'm so glad you liked it Baby! =) After that went home with my stupid headach hurting me!

Somehow I just couldn't help not thinking. Everything..

I chose only to believe in myself. And I'm afraid the truth hurts. How long can people act? And just how long can I pretend? I don't know. I just realised everything really hurts.. Truth hurts. Reality hurts. And the future hurts..

Somehow that 'fear' has never seemed to leave me...

Collbie Cailat - Realize

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me.

Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another

Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[Verse 2:]
Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

[Chorus:]
If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another

Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[Verse 3:]
It's not all the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.

If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

Oh ya, STUPID PIG! So late then tell me got drag race and rounding. Always like that! Next time so late don't tell me! Eeyer~! I can't go. Crap.