} Emilynn :D my love for you <#3

Like this old darn song? It's for you dude~!

Let's all start moaning over the death of lynn's good soul. Hee~

Well, everything FINALLY ended today?! Did it? It did in my view. Not sure whether it does to someone. Cause having agreed to end things on several occasions didn't end at all due to someone's liking of going back on his own words.

Back to topic. It ended at like 5pm? Hmm. I gotta apologise to darlings for not updating. I've been so bloody "AFFECTED". I'll start explaining stuffs DAY BY DAY alright.

I'll start using ya words to me on YOU! Let you have a taste of ya own soup?

STANDBY~ -lol sial.

Went to Yio Chu Kang MRT today with darling. I've been using the word darling so much I confused myself with who is who. KIDDING! Of course I know. I'll start spilling out who these mysterious darlings are. Alright. Went there to get to someplace somebody should know.

I'm sorry I made this move today. I had to protect myself. I had to be selfish this time. I've given you a chance last night. Or rather quite a few chances just talking about yesterday alone. But you didn't treasure it..

*STORY TIME*

Mission: Emilynn To Be Miserable
Duration: Estimation 2weeks

All this while I've been hinting, while tolerating everything. It's so hard on a 18yr old k!

You didn't budge a bit. Not even a lil. You continued all this while. I suffered in silence. Giving you the benefits of an adult. Hoping and wishing this move would be the right one. Thinking stupidly that hurting only myself and not you will make you realise and learn from mistakes?

I was wrong..

Things became worse.. Tsk tsk.

I've got no more road to run. It's a dead end you've pushed me to.

I was prepared to end things. But darling dissuaded me last night and asked for a last chance to be given. I did. But nope. Things still didn't come the way I expected. Still reluctant. Still brave and strong. Still stubborn. Still want face.

Dude. Chances are given only once. And only given at that point of time.

After today. I regretted. I chided myself. Asking why hadn't I go there a lil later? You text me too late. I'm sorry.

I tried consoling myself. Telling myself probably this way would be the best way out. End it once and for all. Let's not make someone be nice than mean than nice again and than back to mean. Duh~ I'm fast. Don't always expect me follow ya rhythm like I use to.

Let's hope this REALLY is the end. Let's learn to be NICE. Let's learn to forgive and forget. Let's start growing up. Let's start acting like our age. =)

Learn... Remember, don't make a fool of yaself!

*END OF STORY*

One thing I was glad was, I had all my darlings with me. They said: " If I were you, I would have gone crazy and not know what to do." I am no better. I have fallen down flat with my face on the ground. But yes, at least I know.. That no matter how hard I was to fall, I could still fall back on you guys. Thanks darlings!

Went for dinner. And yes! I had the appetite to eat. ALOT! Why not? Somebody was thinking I won't be eating.. But why? Ha. Thanks for ya concern anyway. I mean it. But I know you sure say: "Who wanna concern you ah! Don't pretend to be polite leh. HYPOCRITE!" RIGHT?! Ha.

Than darling accompanied me to darling house to help her dye hair.

Darling left at about 11pm? So sorry you had to left 1st. Had to help her finish dying 1st. So sorry! Anyway thanks for accompanying me to YCK! Early don't ask you there make you wait. Sorry sorry. Thanks for accompanying me for dinner too!

Left at 3am? Forgot. Thanks Darling friend for sending me home! Sorry that you had to drive so slowly knowing that I was afraid when you were already so tired and have work tomorrow.

DARLINGS.. Everything is over. Thanks for all ya help, care and concern for the past 2wks. I Love You guys.. Mwahs~